Unwelcme Dreams

It's unpleasant when you dream about things that you had no intention to; even worse when it's something you want nothing more than to avoid thinking about at all. For me, these dreams have gotten more and more frequent lately, and it is making me wonder why it is that they are hitting me now. It's difficult for me to come to terms with the fact that maybe beneath all of the harbored anger that I have towards my ex, there is still a piece of me that loves her; I think that might be what these dreams have been about. I see her damn near every night as soon as my eyes are closed, not because I want to be with her any more, not because I care about her the way I used to; but I think because I have hated her for so long that now my conscious needs me to accept that there is a part of me she's always going to have. I usually like to have some closure after I write these posts, there is none this morning... I don't know when I'll get it...