Saturday, July 31, 2010

Back to the land of ten thousand lakes...

So yes, back to the cities I have once again traveled, this time permanently. Of course Iowa brought to my attention a lot of things about myself that I definitely think will make me a better person over the long run, plus friendships were made there that I honestly believe will probably end up being life long ones; and the independance and freedom of being not only out from under my parents for two years, but out of state gave me a little insight into what the world has in store beyond the safehaven of home; and not that I'm scared of what is beyond, but it is certainly nice being back in the safehaven for the time being, for all the right reasons.



Iowa was great to me, most of the time. Though the rash of breakins and thefts from my apartment from people that I trusted who I shouldn't have were what pushed me the last bit towards the decision to move, I felt like it was going to be happening soon enough anyway. Really the idea of establishing my life in Mason wasn't the right fit, and I knew it all along, I was too distracted by having fun and mesing around with my friends to make the progress I would have needed to make being that far from home and working a crappy, annoying, but loveable job making grand slam deliciousness for all.



So not more thann 24 hours after being robbed for the second time within a month, I had a Uhaul lined up and was loading and coming back to Minnesota, abrupt and sudden, but maybe that move was the catalyst for what seems to be the beginning of the tumblers falling into place for my life to make true forward progress; within a day of being back I had a job with somewhat more regular hours, better pay, and more possibility, (although working in the steel plant might drive me a little bit nuts) which can lead to saving up and finishing college, which will in turn cause more good things to happen; so maybe rather than just harboring angry thoughts towards the coward who robbed me I have realized that maybe it was indeed what some call a blessing in disguise, because those events can be credited with my return to the safehaven of home for the time being, and the bright outlook I have once again renewed within myself for my own future.



I may not know exactly where I am going, and I sure as hell have no clue how exactly I'm going to get there, but what I do know is that things seem to be lining up and making a bit more sense on the school and work front. As far as the relationship front, well, it's sure nice to be back in the cities =P we'll have to see what's in store, but for now I remember some advice a pretty smart guy told me once, "You have to be able to stand entirely alone and be alright before you can expect someone to want to stand with you" so I'm just going to hang out here, and stand on my own, and wait for the right someone to come stand with me.



There be the update, I am writing this entirely too early in the AM for me, think ima go take a nap, Lizard out =)

PS - Thank you blogspot for autosaving my drafts, I'd have been super pissed if my misclick actually made me lose this whole post =D